Hello! I would like to introduce you to Clara. I very much hope that you accept her. Or at least feel towards her similarly to how you have felt towards me (however that may be…lol…). You see, you’re already friends with her, if we are friends, and for as long as you have known me,…
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145) Coming Full Circle: Part 5 — The Bleeding Hearts and The Artists Make Their Stand
In Pink Floyd’s The Wall, when the album (or movie) is almost over, and the big crescendo has happened, and the wall has come crashing down (which is really cool to see live in concert!!), there is this wonderfully beautiful little song that I didn’t appreciate for the longest time, wrapped up as I was…
144) Coming Full Circle: Part 4 — My Personal Piece of Performance Art :)
I believe that the solution, in the smallest nutshell, is Fierce Love. Fierce love in protecting and taking care of our Mother. Fierce love in accepting and opening ourselves to each other. Fierce love, in accepting and opening ourselves to ourselves, to own own unique loveliness. Fierce love, in standing in…
143) Coming Full Circle: Part 3 — Screaming into the Void
***Venting ahead*** So, I have been…bothered…by the trajectory of the world for a long time. I wrote a high school paper on climate change in……check it out…….1986. We knew about all this WAY BACK THEN. And mostly what we know now that we didn’t know then, are more of the precise details of just how…
142) Coming Full Circle: Part 2 — Ancient Dreams in a Modern Land
We, of the modern, global, technological, 21st century world of science and post-colonialism and such, now are beginning to understand that humans have ALWAYS known how to organize ourselves better than we are, in most places, today. It is, in essence, the indigenous way. (Obviously, that’s a huge generalization and you can’t just lump…
c) Trauma & healing, d) Saving the World: Environmental and other Challenges of this Age of Humanity
141) Coming Full Circle: Part 1 — Me, this blog, Pink, and a Scathing Diatribe against The System, maaaan
I feel really, really grateful for you all. All the people who have been reading this and sharing thoughts, a whole community of people who share ideas on Facebook especially and in comments here — it’s just awesome to have experienced all this. Blogging is (for me anyway, lol….) a pretty personal thing, like writing…
140) Wow…weird…. I healed: Part 4 – Backlash (or, as my therapist likes to say, “Shame is a tricky bastard”)
If you have a history of trauma, addiction, self-harm, shame — you know, fun things like that — then as you experience growth and healing, you will also likely experience the “backlash” that follows, and can slam you right back down to the bottom. It’s awfully demoralizing, especially if you don’t know what’s happening. You…
139) Wow…weird…. I healed: Part 3 – The Spontaneous, Seemingly-Magical Transformation of Motivation
I do, sincerely and excitedly, want to share my story of healing in detail. It’s going to take some time to fully put it together. In the meantime, for this post, I want to share one of the most – stunning – outcomes of this whole experience. Which, in short, is the “spontaneous transformation of…
138) Wow…weird. I healed: Part 2 — The Self-Fulfilling Prophecy of Self-Improvement
It is important to recognize (as I obliquely alluded to in the previous post, #137), that when you are “working on self-improvement” in whatever way you are, even “failure” isn’t failure. I truly mean that, not as some cliché but as a deeply-felt truth. Because “working on self-improvement”, even when it “fails”, keeps you open,…
137) Wow…weird. I healed: Part 1 – The struggle and the miracle
Hello Friend, and welcome back! If you have been following my “From Shitty-ness to Well-ness” series on healing from trauma, I have to apologize to you! I had intended to post the final part of the “Rational Self-Analysis” section already, like, months ago. But wouldn’t you know, the strangest thing happened. As odd as it…